Give Bella a Voice!

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Give Bella a Voice!.


Happy Birthday My Sweet Bella!

I can’t believe it’s been a year.  A year since I last saw you and held you.  A year since my world was turned upside down.  I miss you so much it hurts.  I think about you every day and my heart still aches every time I do.  I still cry when I think of you, not as often as I used to though.  I guess that’s a good thing.

Today on your special day I cried a lot.  I cried because I miss what could have been.  Continue reading

A Year Ago Today Part 3: March 4,2011

What did my day look like a year ago today, Friday, March 4,2011?

That Friday was like any other day off. I woke up at seven, got the kids ready for school, dropped them off, and crawled back into bed next to Paul.  I usually slept in on my days off, that day was no exception.  While I slept until eleven o’clock, my husband tended to our youngest son Caleb and engaged in their normal daily routines.  I was awoken by a gentle kiss on my forehead and fingers running through my hair.

As I moaned and complained I rolled out of bed and got my things ready for a shower.  As I was taking my shower I remember thinking to myself that Bella wasn’t moving.  I even shook my belly thinking the movement would wake her.  I assumed she was still asleep and would wake up once I ate some breakfast.  After all, the ultra sound tech had a hard time getting her to move for the sonogram even after jiggling my belly to wake her that previous Wednesday.  As I sat down to eat my breakfast I still thought it was odd she wasn’t moving.  Normally when I ate something or drank something cold she would start to move around and react to the coldness.  I started to feel a knot in my stomach, but tried to comfort myself by thinking she must have still been asleep. She probably was awake when I was asleep and I just didn’t notice.  As I got up from the table I mentioned it to Paul. Continue reading

A Year Ago Today Part 2: March 3, 2011

What did my day look like a year ago today, Thursday, March 3, 2011?

It was a regular work day for me, but I had a little bit more pep in my step.  It was my last day at work before my maternity leave began.  I would work one more full day and then work from home to finish my progress reports.  I had to come back the following Tuesday so that I could hand them out.  My Principal asked a few times if I was coming back on Tuesday.  I reassured her I was each time.  I thought, “Maybe she is planning a surprise shower for me. Why else would she want me to come back?”  I couldn’t stop smiling because I knew I was getting closer to having Bella and I would be able to stay home and rest for a few days before she came. Continue reading

A Year Ago Today Part 1: March 2, 2011

What did my day look like a year ago today, Wednesday March 2,2011?

It started off with a visit to my diabetes specialist.  I was going weekly at this point in my pregnancy with Bella.  I was 37 weeks and 2 days pregnant.  Each week I would weigh in, download my sugar levels, get strapped up to a machine to measure her movements and heart rate, and then I would get to see my newest blessing on a 42″ flat screen TV.  Bella was pretty inactive that day.  The non-stress test took a little bit longer than usual.  Her heart beat was just as strong as the previous visits, she just wasn’t moving a lot.  She must have been really sleepy that day.  Continue reading